Hi there, my name is alexis, and yes im a teenage mom. I joined this website because i need to find a way to express how i feel about what happened. To start off, i got pregnant when i was 15 but i did not plan on getting pregnant so when i found out i was i just wanted to leave this world because it was just huge news to me especially since im only a junior in high school. I didnt tell my mom about me being pregnant, so to prevent her from finding out i stayed at my friends house for a week or two. The 3rd day of staying at my friends my mom texted me asking "are you pregnant ?" because she found the pregnancy tests. I told her yeah and she said she would tell the rest of our family so i didnt have to. My mom was extremely supportive in the begining . my dad was disappointed but everyone in my family was so supportive. In july i went for my first ultrasound, i was so excitied to see my lil baby. When i saw the baby i lite up instantly and fell in love. Months later, i believe it was in october on the 6th i went to find out the gender of the baby. Me and my boyfriend Justin were so happy to find out, and it was his birthday the next day so it was a big deal to us. When we went into the room and she set up the stuff for the ultrasound, when she finally started the ultrasound we kept waiting eagerly to know. Then she told us she couldn't see between the legs of the baby because the legs were all swollen. After that she mentioned to us that there is possibly a cist on the babies neck and fluid in the neck, head and spine. I balled my eyes out just from hearing the cist thing. Then i was scheduled to go to the hospital the next day. When we went they said from the ultrasound pictures they saw it does look like the baby has hydrops. Took me into a counseling room to talk about it and explain everything to me and i started crying so much i could not even breathe. The lady asked me if i wanted to do amino to look further into it and i said yeah. So We did that sometime around the week of october 12th. Waited for the results and when we went back to the hospital they told us "The baby has hydrops and turner syndrome". My heart sank. They also told us that the baby was a girl. They wanted to get an ultrasound done too...and they found that the whole left side of her heart was not developed (i was 22weeks i believe). They said she had a whole in her heart too. I couldnt take it anymore. Then the week of October 24th i had to go to the hospital for another ultrasound done to check her and when i went to go to the bathroom before going back to the room to get the ultrasound done i noticed i was bleeding...i rushed out and told my mom and she told the lady at the desk. In a matter of seconds i got taken back to check her heartbeat ... and there was not a heartbeat. I cried for an hour and then had to get taken to the delivery room. They put me on these pills to start up the contractions and on the 27th of October is when i had a stillbirth. I named her Averi Rayne. Ever since then i just can not eat, sleep or drink anything. I cry every night for hours while holding her blanket. My friends say i have depression and i denied that. I have no idea how to even handle this. Can you guys help me out?